Fear. Sweaty palms. Shaking legs. An annoyingly pounding heart. Something in my stomach that doesn't feel like butterflies, but more like an ant's nest. Fear.
I know it all too well. Heck, I propaby feel it on a weekly basis. Mostly it's caused by things I know I shouldn't objectively be scared of. Like having to drive somewhere and not knowing for sure where I'll find a parking spot. Or running into someone at the grocery store who I know a little, but actually really not that good (should I just say 'Hi' and walk by or is that rude and am I supposed to start a conversation?).
I've had these fears for as long as I can remember. As a child I was afraid to learn how to ride a bike and to swim. But even more afaid to be laughed at if I tried it and failed. As a teenager I became afraid to say something in a group of people, especcially if I didn't know them well and even more so if they were boys (having as a result that I never even gave people a chance to get to know me, which made me believe that people simply didn't like me, which made me eve more shy).
For a long time I thought I was the only one feeling so afraid all the time. The only one who was so insecure, so scared to fail, to be not good enough. But now that I'm getting a bit older and confident enough to talk about it, I actually learned that several of my friends have these fears too. And not only that, I regularly see people opening up about them on social media.